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So I recently moved into a new house because I am getting my original house remodeled, so there were many oppertune moments to take new This Is Ryan Ross pictures with my Ryan wig.

This Is Ryan Ross Champagne

This Is Ryan Ross Chandelier

This Is Ryan Ross Ginger Bread House

This Is Ryan Ross Cow (and my awesome picture)

This Is Ryan Ross Hairspray

This Is Ryan Ross Lamp

This Is Ryan Ross Mannequin

This Is Ryan Ross Pinapple

This Is Ryan Ross Nature Lady Statue

This Is Ryan Ross Hat Lady Statue

This Is Ryan Ross Mini Christmas Tree-

This Is Ryan Ross Train

I look forward to more oppertunities to share This Is Ryan Ross photos with you. I will just have to remember to keep my creepy little doll wig on my person at all times. Until then- Have a happy new years.

This Is Ryan Ross

(Of course- everyone remembers it)

And we all remember his interview with MTV News:

"I planned the whole thing!" he laughed. "No, [the photo was taken] a couple of weeks ago - I do remember, believe it or not. I'm not gonna tell you whose house it was at, but yeah, there was a party the night before, and I slept on the couch, and we took a picture. I didn't even really know [the cocaine] was there."

Well, I know who's house it was at. I was on YouTube in my english class last week and I stumbled upon a most reveiling video.

Looks like Michael's got some 'splainin to do.....

It was Michael that threw the party. It was Michael who invited people that do coke. It was Michael that didn't stop it.

Now, I really really REALLY like Michael's music and wouldn't want to victimize him but I would just like to point out that it wasn't Ryan that should be blamed for the coke picture, it's Michael. And since Michael's fan base is a small percent of Panic's- I fee fine saying this, knowing that he doesn't have any dieheart fans that will read this and die a little inside.

P.S.

Them boys don't laugh anymore
Them don't joke or smile or even remember
Them boys never want to anymore anyways

Them boys don't play anymore
Them don't sing and them don't write
Them boys are too stubborn to anyways

Them boys get hurt more often
Them tried and failed and lost them's boys
Them boys loose them's friends from time to time

Them boys made me cry
Them boys made me remember
Them boys were my's everything

Them boys once said,
"We's Boys"
Them boys made me believe them

As it was said on Twitter, there are two new members of The Young Veins. The drumer, Nick Murray, used to be in a bunch of bands but is now just in TYV. The bassist (Yes, Jon is playing guitar in TVY!) is a guy named Andy Soukal. As of what I know, I'm pretty sure that these guys are here as perminant members, not just touring. I think they weren't invloved in the recording of Take a Vacation but I think that they are going to be involved with the band and such, not just there for tours. Their record should be expected in Spring of 2010. Even though they are done mastering it and such, they still have to work out the label-issues. I'm assuming that they are still not signed but now that they have all the members that they will need, I think that they'll be good to go. They're not staying with FBR (Ryan and Jon are probably sick of FBR Trash). Anyways, they obviously were practicing... Jon and Ryan take turns visiting eachother (which makes me hyperventillate knowing that Rhyo is less than an hour away from me). Um... yea.

Today after hearing the news about Andy and Nick, I Tweeted them congrats and guess what I just got and hour and a half ago!!!!!!!!!!!!

I died, no joke. I was literally shaking and... Oh god. A member of The Young Veins sent me a direct message on Twitter. Oh Glory!

Anyways: Here are some Picture Updates:

Nick Murray:

Andy Soukal:

Jon & Cassie (Being Adorable):

Jon's Basement/ Veins Practice Area:

I say "Herpy" because for me, it sucks.

I'm a good kid. I always do my homework. I do well in school and always try my hardest. I do things when I'm asked. I do things with out being asked. I never ask for anything. The last thing my mom bought for me in a while was dinner. I basically live like a monk almost. I bought my guitar with my own money. I bought my camera with my own money. I NEVER ask for anything unreasonable. All I do is give my parents the upmost respect and love. I'm not fussy. I don't act out. I don't lie. I mostly home anyways. I don't expect much in return. Al I want to know is that my parents love me and appreciate me. Well, they got half of it down.

I dropped my phone Friday morning. It always falls. This time when I turned it back on, the screen was just black. The keys worked but I couldn't see anything. I showed my mom and she was upset. I showed my dad and he wasn't happy. I told them I was sorry. I can't use the phone- it just doesn't work. I only know my mom and the house's number by heart. I can recognize some other numbers but that's it. So my dad and mom went to the AT&T store today. They didn't ask me to go so they told me to babysit my little sister, she's 4, I babysit her all the time, free of charge. They came back 2 1/2 hours later. They had my mom's old phone in hand.

Let me explain this sinario. My mom didn't like the service on her old phone which was with AT&T. She got a Blackberry from Verision. She hated it. It was too difficult to figure out. So she went back 2 weeks ago to AT&T to get an iPhone, she loves it. I love it too. I've been asking for an iPhone for like.... 4 months now. So, yea. Explained. Anyways, she kept her old phone which was terrible and falling apart and the reason she was getting bad service. She liked it's alarm capabilities.

I just asked them calmly, "Am I getting mom's old phone?" and they were like, "Yup." My dad put my SIM card in it and put in upstairs to charge. I had some Halloween candy and carved a pumpkin and helped the community park put up some decorations and then came home. At around lunch I asked my mom, "Just wondering but, why couldn't I get an iPhone?" She told me, "Michele, you weren't being careful with your phone and this is what happened." I told her, "But mom, I just don't see why I can't have the iPhone, I've offered to pay for the monthly package fee." She just said, "Christmas is coming!" and not in the cheery way. Yea, Christmas is coming, in two months.

I went upstairs to get my mom's.... I mean my phone and opened it up. I checked my messages and closed it. I hate this phone. I hated it when my mom had it. Everyone hated this phone. It literally is the suckiest phone ever. It's thickness it about 1/2 of your thumb. Awful. I got a message and it whispered let me be your hero.... (Inrique Iglesias song). I swalloed a HUGE lump in my throat. Then I opened the phone to see the message and the front cover literally popped off. I lost it. I smacked my head down on the counter and cried for a good 3 minutes. I hate this phone.

I decided to change the ringtone so it was less horrble. I found a Family Guy one on YouTube where Peter sings this funny song. I felt a little better. I went to the counter and layed my head down. My mom walked in the room and saw I was sulking and she said, "What's wrong?" I told her, "May I ask you why I had to get this phone? I've been wanting a new phone for a while now and I've had my old one for almost two years and when Johanna's broke she got a new one." (Johanna= sister) She told me, "Michele, there are kids out there your age that don't even have phones." I was getting upset. I said, "Well that obviously isn't our situation!" We're getting our house removated. The kitchen, the bathrooms, the living room- it isn't cheap, we can afford things. I just don't know why this could possibly be the delema. Oh, by the way. When my dad and mom came back from the store, my dad had gotten an iPhone. He had the SAME PHONE AS ME and he got a new one. So my mom was like, "So just because we have money, you think you should get an iPhone?" and at that moment, I was just done. I told her, "That's not what I'm trying to say at all and you know it. Nevermind. I guess you just don't see it my way." I walked upstairs, closed my door, layed on my bed and cried. I settled down after 5 minutes and then IT started to ring. I burst out crying again.

I'm not being a brat to my parents for giving me a stupid phone. I was a little ticked at first about the phone but that really is just the flemmy layer that has been sitting on top of the sour milk for 10 hours. The real reason I am upset is because they don't show me they appreciate me. That sounds bad. They don't let me know that what I do for them everyday is nice and that they love me and are grateful that I do it. I don't need them to buy me a thankyou card everytime I do something nice for them. I just thought that if I asked for one big thing, like this phone they'd think, "You know, Michele deserves this phone. She does so many things for us and she's a good kid." But no. They need to wait for a major holiday to buy me things. I feel under appreciated. I don't smoke. I don't drink. I'm not on drugs. I don't wear scary make up. I don't even get allowance! I just thought that maybe I was worth buying something nice for. Maybe I deserved a nice phone. Maybe I am good enough for a nice phone. Well in their eyes, I'm just doing as told and it isn't necessary for rewarding such acts. Sorry. I didn't get the memo.

THIS IS A BLOG ENTRY BY KELTIE ON OCTOBER 21ST

"I don't like to lead a life filled with hate or resentment but I am feeling a little overwhelmed with the bad stuff today. I am thinking about the words "I am sorry".

This is a phrase that is overused in our daily lives. We bump into people on the street, fall on them on the subway, bump their carts in the store and we are sorry. We forget someones birthday, forget someones name or forget to email back right away and we are sorry. We miss a payment, miss a flight or miss an appointment and once again we are sorry.

We make promises we don't keep.
We forget to call back.
We lie.

And all of these things can be fixed with a simple "I'm sorry". The kicker is that most of the time, this lame explanation comes without any growth or substance from the guilty party. It is simply a way to get out out of being the bad guy. The sad thing is that a mistake is supposed to be something we learn from. We are all human, we are all going to make both big and small mistakes, but to me "I'm sorry" means, I DID NOT realize at the time that this would hurt/upset/cause stress for you and I regret that it happened and I will do my best to not do this thing again. It makes me seriously bummed when I see people making the same mistakes over and over again in life and expecting me to always accept their apology. "Sorry" was never ment to be your trip past go to collect 200 bucks and start the circle again. It is supposed to be starting point for a change in behavior.

This week I heard a song that made me want to puke. It is funny because we were just speaking about NYC and how great it is, and my old building and my old hangouts that he seems to frequent now, laughing, being silly and being friends. It felt great. I felt great. Hanging with all my bests here on tour and having them gush over the awesomeness that is holding my hand these days. Everything is exactly where is needs to be. Then I hear this song, and I cannot help but feel like I have been made the biggest fool of yet again. It is bad enough to make a fool of me, expect that a simple "I'm sorry" will fix it...but hearing a peppy, upbeat pop song about something that caused me huge amount of pain is a little disheartening. I don't think I like being a muse anymore.

I am a accepting enough person to write and say
"So, The other girl? not my favorite song ;/"
to which I get a
"oh yea. I'm sorry"

You're sorry? Well that's wonderful, but I don't want apologies. I feel like I have been pretty cool throughout all of this. Other girls would have burned your house down. When "I'm sorry" is a staple of your vocabulary is becomes useless. I want a change in behavior, a change in your character, and I know that is impossible to ask of you because I know you too well. This is who you are, this is how you are, and I'm not supposed to try and change that. I'm accepting you as YOU, and moving on.

I guess the lesson here is to be impeccable with your word and if that word is "SORRY" then make sure that you fix your mistakes. Say what you mean and mean what you say. Always."

And I was like, HOLY CRAP! Not only did she post this, she also posted a picture that almost made me throw up from sadness.

Let's just skip the explanation of who this text is from to save time- it's quite obvious.

First thoughts for me:

•HOLY CRAP

•That's a TEXT from RYAN ROSS to Keltie

•I'm going to be sick, this is so sad

•It's really late on a Wednesday night but I can't possibly think of sleeping now that I just read this on my iTouch- computer on again!

•This isn't fair to Ryan

•Wait a sec, "The Other Girl" is about his infidelity? Whoa, I'm slow.

"The Other Girl" is the 2nd song that The Young Veins have released but it's not on their MySpace. They played it on Alex Greenwald's friend's radio show.

The main lyrics of the song are:

Don't wait around for love
You're not what he's thinking of
When he's with the other girl

Don't bother waiting up cause he
He's not where he's supposed to be
When he's with the other girl
When he's with the other girl

You, you were right
I was wrong,
Like I always am
And you always are

Don't have much to say right now
Cause I'm trying to figure out
Why he's with the other girl

Life is not a fairytale
They will send him straight to jail
Where he'll die and go to hell
With the other girl
With the other girl

I guess I'm over the whole break up and the reasons why they did break up. I don't know. It's just like, wow. It's real again. I guess I forgot about it. I thought of it as an action in the past, not something that continues on to today- where it's effecting people directly and indirectly. Keltie needs to catch a break. I wish that just for once, things would be 100% for her. She needs support now more than ever. I hope she's going to be okay- she truely is going through a lot. ♥

So I went on Ryan's Twitter Page to click a link to the poster for their new album's premiere party at Angels and kings and guess what I saw?!?!?!?

And I was like, "OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!" (And I hate saying OMG because it makes me sound like a megga Teeny-Bopper but it's like 12:30 on a Tuesday night and I'm like "La la la"). Ryan is FOLLOWING KELTIE. This is recent obviously because she's at the top of the list. So I clicked on her page and guess what I saw?!?!?!?!?!?

And then I was like, "OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!" She's following him back!!! AND THEN guess what I saw?!?!?!?

And I was like, "YAY!!! Yawn. *Fall Asleep Due to too much excitement this late*"

When I finally came to, I opened the link and I went "AWWWWWWWWWWWW".

Of coarse, EVERYONE remembers the good 'ol times when... well, this picture will jog your memory...

(He's a Native at heart)

So this made me VERY happy that she is able to put her feelings aside to share a beloved inside joke with him. It warmed my heart and raised by incredibly low blood pressure to normal just for one moment that I didn't feel like an amphibian. I'm happy that he doesn't resent her for making his infidelity public beezwax too. Love is good but friendship is great.

(Okay. I'm positive that a baloon that I have in my room just blew kisses to me. I'm getting scared)

OH. And by the way. Who's excited for The Young Veins' new album? I AM! I wish I lived in New York....

(Butch Walker sound familiar? Butch Walker= Open Happiness)

If anyone goes, will you keep an eye out for Misha Barton? Keep a camera in hand and TMZ's phone number in the other is she even gets CLOSE to Ryan. Misha= Poser. Don't understand what I'm talking about? CLICK HERE.

Okay, so last night I was totally convinced that Brendon Urie and his body guard Zack Hall were genuinely going to hate eachother forever. They were having a dispute via Twitter about football. It came to the point that Zack gave away Brendon's address.

(Start from the bottom up)

I kinda knew that in the back of my head that Zack would never give away Bden's address. I mean, HELLO. His job is to protect Bden from any stalker fangirls/ guys that want to attack him. I looked up the address anyways. I had to make sure. I mean, what if?

Brendon's "Address"

Yea, apparently Brendon lives above the Los Angeles Fight Club. LOL.

So I felt stupid, and like a stalker, because to some extent, I am. I mean, I typed in an address to see if there was a legit house there (which I would later take pictures in front of when I visit LA). Okay, Creepy.

I love Bden and Zack. They're amazing and hilarious. Their personalities extrude from their tweets- it's incredible. They're both very unique special people.

i ♥ bden & zack

I kinda thought Keltie had moved on from Ryan. I mean, she has a new boyfriend, lots of dancing jobs, good friends, supportive fans, but when you see the small details, she's still holding on to it.

Mmmmmmhhhmmmm. I don't know if this was intentionally directed at Ryan fans or whatever but it's so obvious.

"Some people never change, they just stay the same way...."

I guess she is entitled to respond to the song. I would assume that it is about her. I kinda thought she already had her say about the whole thing for 7 months. When Ryan sings this song one time, she still has to get the last word. She's obviously still hurting. I wish that things had gone differently. I think Keltie is fearless (her word lol) and is amazing. I just wish she'd be more honest with herself.

So recently I was cleaning out my basement and I found the weirdest thing. A small circle wig. I have no idea what it is from. I can only imagine the strange doll that used to reside under it. Then as I was staring at the strange wig, I found a sense of homey-ness. What did this wig reming me of? And then I remembered.

Ryan Ross's Hair. The wig looked exactly like Ryan Ross's hair. I started to laugh. I remembered the picture of Ryan's friend on Twitter (Don't remember who it was, they changed their picture).

I think I have the same wig as this guy. ^^^

***EDIT: I found the guy. It's Chris Bletzer***

So an idea was implanted in my brain. I would find Ryan Ross in the strangest of places. I would take my wig places and turn objects measuring 6 inches in width into my favourite guitarist.

Here's what I got so far:

LOCATION: My Room

DATE: 9/7/2009

This Is Ryan Ross Candle

This Is Ryan Ross Foot

This Is Ryan Ross Hairbrush

This Is Ryan Ross Hand Puppet

This Is Ryan Ross Kowala

This Is Ryan Ross Teddy Bear

Not too exciting but the project will blossom and will be pretty interesting. I'll just update this post everytime I get new pictures. Comment Suggestions If You Like.

This Is Ryan Ross

I have to admit, I have a small obsession with answering questions about Panic! At the Disco on Yahoo Answers. I do it.... pretty much everyday. I like receiving "You Got a Best Answer" eMails. I save them in a file called, "Best Answer" on gMail. I know all this stuff about them so I might as well put it to good use. Recently, I saw a question asking about Panic changing and our opinions on said change. Needless to say, my description of it is neutral at best. They were 'concerned' about them not being original anymore, which I'll admit, I was worried about too with the newest single "New Perspective". C'mon guys. We all know it isn't classic P!ATD. It's no suprise when I say that he thought their mainstream approach to a junior album was less than appealing.

(But the music video was amazing, of course)

So, my point of the journal is that I stood up for my boys. I told him how he's not seeing things with an open mind and how he shouldn't judge a book by it's cover/ an album by it's single:

I loved his reaction. I'm glad that he didn't block them out. Because reason can change the world and just small acts like these can make it a better place. Stand up for the things you love and never lose hope.

Gif files are small little things that are pretty much a combination of a youtube video and a picture. I'm sure you're all familiar. Well, over the past year of me liking Panic! At the Disco, I have come across some very very interesting Panic! At the Disco Gif files and I... well I couldn't bid them goodbye. SO I have saved each and every one of the files that I have come across on this power point. Brace your self to be amazed- this is pure craziness.

AMAZING

This kinda made me die a little on the inside. I was watching the NME inteview with Ryan and Jon on Panic At the Disco's track-by-track explanation of Pretty. Odd. and Ryan moved his hand and my heart dropped to my ass. He was wearing a promise ring. My heart literally stopped for about 5 seconds. I wanted to crawl under a rock.

Keltie wore hers on her middle finger.

...That is until she threw it at him...

Now I need to get over it all over again. Sigh.

P.S. NME Spell Fail

I went to a Panic! meet n greet like a month ago and I was looking for the group pictures for like EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Well today smart 'ol me looked on the Northern Downpour message boards and I FOUND THEM! GOOD GOD!!!!!!!!!!

Zack told everyone to go in a group for the group pic. No one else went in the middle.... so I did. :)

^^^ Brendon touched my butt moving from picture 1 to picture 2. Epicness to no limit.

I liked being in the middle because now I can edit out everyone else and have 2 more pictures of me and Panic! alone. Ha ha.

What do you normally eat everyday. Portion size, meals, snacks, drinks- the whole shabang. I wanna know every boring detail. I'm trying to figure things out at school and I don't know if I'm eating enough in the day but then too much at night. Just an average day- rule out days you go to an event or whatever. Please also say your age. Thankyou!

(BTW- The pics are random. I knew I had pics of Panic!/ The Veins eating so I decided to include them)

After months of stubbornness and persuasion- I have finally obtained the one concrete thing that I wanted most in the world. I finally have a Fender '57 Vintage Stratocaster Reissue in surf green. I WIN!

You may or may not have read my previous journal about this guitar. It was basicly about how I wanted it alot and my mom wouldn't let me buy it because it was so expensive blah blah blah. Well today- it was all different.

I have wanted this guitar since... almost a year ago, which translates to FOREVER. I saw Ryan Ross of Panic At the Disco (now The Young Veins) in pictures with this guitar and fell in love... oh and I liked the guitar a lot too. I looked it up on the Fender website and saw that it was $2,360. Just a little bit out of my price range.... by $2,340. For 10 months I begged my parents for the privledge to purchase the guitar with some of my 8th grade graduation money but they didn't budge- I would have to wait.

Well today I went to Guitar Center. We went to get a second acoustic guitar for me because I wanted to leave one at school for a guitar class that I will be taking. Before I even find one acoustic guitar, I look behind me and there it was. The Fender '57 Vintage Stratocaster Reissue in surf green. I looked at it and I was like, "Mom! Look, it's the guitar I wanted!" One of the guys working there heard me and asked if I wanted to play it and I was like, "Yea!" He took it down and let me plug into an amp and play away. It was awesome. The price was like, $800 less than the one on the Fender website so my mom was like, "Let's get it" out of nowhere. I didn't expect her to say it- I was shocked. I was like, "YES. Yes. A million times yes!" We got it, a Fender amp, a huge case that weighs like a bajillion pounds, headphones for my amp, an awesome strap, and some picks. We totaled it up and it still didn't cost as much as it said on the Fender website. Sweet.

So I'm just going to say that this has been probably the best month of my life. I met Panic! At the Disco, had pit-access to the concert of the summer, started driving, and now I have this guitar. August is just my month. Thankyou August.

Yes. I kissed it.

I named him Ryan and for many reasons: He sings great, he's so 60's, he's gorgeous, I love him to death, and I first saw it in the hands of Ryan Ross. Ryan & I will make beautiful music together.

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"Just another day, started out like any other. Just another guy that took my breath away. When he turned around, he took me down. Just another day that I had the best day of my life."

It was 3:20pm on a lovely Saturday afternoon in Tinley Park, Illinois. I had a meet & greet with my favourite band ever, Panic! At the Disco. I'd seen photos of the experience on the internet but I didn't know what to expect. To say the least, I was scared shitless, but I was uuber excited. The one and only Zack Hall came out to greet our group of 14 Northern Downpour fansite meet & greet contest winners. He went through his list on his black iPhone and confirmed the people that were permitted to go in.

Zack wouldn't let me take a picture with him because he told me that he doesn't take pictures with females (He doesn't want to get in trouble with his girl) but he let me take one of him. He was exactly what I expected of him. No surprises. He's a real genuine guy.

After waiting 7 minutes for a no-show for the meet & greet named Megan, Zack decided to take us in. He told us that we weren't allowed to take pictures inside the backstage-area. He didn't want us taking pics of any of blink's kids or anything creepy. As we walked towards the place where the meet & greet would take place we walked past Andy Hurley, the drummer of FOB. It was sooooo weird. He was just playin' football with a girl. No shirt. He was just like, 'hey'.  It was epic.

We got to the room which was kind of like an outdoor balcony with a roof. It was hot outside with a really nice breeze. I felt like I was going to throw up. There was a guy with curly orange hair. I assumed it was Chester French. Nobody else noticed- they didn't know who he was. He just asked Zack, "Are the meet & greets always only girls?" Zack said, "No, we've had two boys." It was weird. Then, after another speech from Zack about not hugging and how things would work out, he went inside to get the boys. We were all standing in a line, I was in the middle. Brendon would start on one end and Spencer would start on the other and they would criss-cross.

When the boys came out, I was speechless. I'm shaking just thinking of it. It was one of the most nerve-racking moments of my life. But soon after seeing how chill and nice and relaxed they were with everyone else, I calmed down a little.

I always thought Spencer was a little pudgy. I loved him for the way he was and it suited him. When I met them, he was so thin! It was mind-boggling. He was about 3 inches taller than me and I'm 5'7 so he was around 5'10 or 5'11. He had really white teeth and one in the front was slightly crooked. It was cute.

Brendon was surprisingly shorter than I imagined. He was about an inch taller than me, so about 5'8-5'9. It was weird because is all of the pictures you see of him you can't really imagine what they'll look like right in front of you. He was pale, like me. I felt less left-out. He was a happy person and his hair looked nice.

I was dieing. No joke. I was about to hurl and die at the same time. But I didn't.

Brendon slowly made his way to me first. He was very sweet and was obviously used to this. He knew everyone was nervous so he played it cool and started conversations instead of having it be an awkward silence. I love him for that. He asked me how I was doing and I was like, 'really good'. He laughed. I melted. I asked him to sign my Pretty. Odd. booklet.

I also asked him to sign something for my friend Sara who lives in Minnesota. She had to sell her ticket that was her birthday present because she didn't have anyone to go with. It was the least I could do, she's my friend. He thought it was nice.

Then I met Spencer. He asked me how I was doing and I was like, 'good'. I asked him to sign my Pretty. Odd. booklet.

Then I said, "Could I ask you a question about a track on the album?" Spencer was like, "Sure." He casually flipped through the pages in the booklet which I later would rub on my face. "In 'Do You Know What I'm Seeing' it sounds like someone's walking through your headphones, is it actually someone walking?" He said, "Yea, that was actually me, it's cool that you picked up on that." *die*. "I had these shoes that when ever I walked in a room they knew it was me so we decided to put it on the track. We had two microphones on the floor and I just walked in between them." (That was me para-phrasing I don't know EXACTLY what he said, it was along the lines of that- he definitely said the 'cool that you picked up on that part' though) It was great. I had him sign my friend's paper and he was on his way to the next person.

In the line, I heard them talking about some other things. Brendon is still dating Sarah, which I'm happy to hear. She bought him the shirt he was wearing. It's a Kenny Powers shirt, baseball player. Who Brendon has quoted before.

"Found out it's not called cheating if you're Mormon, which is why I'm wondering if my fans know some good online baptism shit" -KP

It was cute :)

Spencer uses whatever conditioner that they have in Hotel Rooms. He just takes it out of there. I thought it was kind of a strange question to ask him. But, now we know. He said he doesn't condition a ton but, yea, that's what he uses.

Brendon isn't really thinking of adding to his tattoo arm, he doesn't have any ideas of what to put on there.

Oh yea, and Zack uses the term, "Brencer." It was hilarious.

After they did signing, Zack took individual pictures. I was one of the last to go up so I took pictures while they were with other people. A girl wanted to be able to photo shop her friend in so they took a picture with their arms around an imaginary person, I didn't get the picture. *smacks fingers with ruler* I did get a picture of them with a set list, it was funny.

Then, the moment of truth, I got to take my photo with them. Everyone else was just taking smile pictures. I thought those were cute, but not awesome. I had always imagined myself taking a picture with them doing the Sins-Not-Tragedies face, so that's exactly what we did. :)

I love this moment. Thank you Zack for taking this picture. I made it my computer desktop. I'm also going to put on up in my room, in my locker when school starts, and in my nightstand. I want to remember the best day of my life.

After that we took group pictures. Zack took it with one of the other member's cameras and she'll post it on Northern Downpour and I'll post it when I get it. Zack told everyone to group together and everyone went to the sides of the boys and since no one else was, I went in the middle. It was epic to no limit. We took two pictures. In the first, Brendon had his hands to his sides. In the second, he brought them up to do a thumbs-up. His hand grazed my butt. It. Was. Awesome. Ha ha. It was nothing. An accident. Sarah Orzechowski, if you're reading this, DO NOT GET MAD AT HIM. So yea, that was the highlight of my life.

After that, I met back up with my cousin Amanda and we waited in line to get into the theatre for an hour and a half. It was an outdoor concert but it had poles to support the upper levels and the stage. It's called The First Midwest Bank Amphitheatre.

We decided to buy tickets right before the concert because they're usually cheaper. I wanted pit tickets. It cost more than 500 dollars for two tickets together. It was so worth it. We were really close to the stage, in the center of the pit.

Chester French was first. Nobody liked him. I felt bad. People wanted to see the bands they came there for. A lot of people swore and they got so bored to the point that they brought out some pot and started smoking. It was gross. But I loved it. It felt like I was at an actual rock gig. I felt bad ass.

Then Panic! came out. I was so excited. I found the set list on the internet and they preformed the songs in order as suspected. Time to Dance, But It's Better If You Do, The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage, That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed), Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off, Camisado, New Perspective, Nine In the Afternoon, and lastly I Write Sins Not Tragedies. Unlike in past concerts, they had the parts they couldn't play with their instruments playing in the background such as the intro to Time to Dance or the Cello in I Write Sins Not Tragedies. It was cool to hear the songs like they were on the album live. It was great. Brendon introduced Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off with, "So who likes fucking here? I, myself, enjoy a good fucking now and then. This next song is basically about fucking." *sigh* Just like the good'ol days. Right before they started New Perspective, Brendon dedicated the song to his girlfriend Sarah. It was sooooooo sweet. I melted onto the floor. It explains why I was so dirty after the concert. They were great. The vocals were outstanding. The instruments were right on the dot with everything. Ian, Ryan's replacement, sang Ryan's parts in the songs and it was cool seeing him again. Dallon, Jon's replacement, was just kind of there. He sang some back up but not enough to really hear him. Panic! was great. The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage's chorus, the moshing began. I looped arms with my cousin and we stayed together. She lost a flip flop/ got her butt grabbed 3 times and I got my feet stepped on multiple occasions. It was great. The moshing continued during other songs at high-energy parts where the tempo quickened and what not. I loved every minute of it.

Ashlee Simpson-Wentz was watching from the right side of the stage (by Dallon). It was pretty exciting.

Then Fall Out Boy came out next. I always thought that they were mediocre in their live performances. I had never seen them live but I had on television and I didn't expect much. I don't know if they just wanted to do their hometown proud or maybe television doesn't do them justice but they were fantastic. So much energy. I was feeding off their enthusiasm and everyone was jumping to the beat. It was great. I knew most of the songs- I'm no FOB expert. And I loved it.

Then , as I suspected, they covered Don't Stop Believin' by Journey. Also, as I knew would happen, Brendon came out and sang it with them. He was wearing his Sarah shirt. Too cute. He was great, his vocals always sound amazing, even if they're not on key, it's crazy.

Then, Fall Out Boy was over and I was in so much pain. All I had eaten that day was a bowl of Cheerios and a banana with some peanut butter. My lower back hurt like hell. I was hot and dehydrated. I like blink, but they're not my favourite band. I really wanted to stay and see them but I didn't think I could take anymore. I told my cousin we should wait for one song that we knew and then we could leave. We waited about 20 grueling minutes for the stage to be re-set-up and we made our way to the back of the pit because there was no way that we could've gotten through during the set. Finally they came on and opened with a song we didn't know, I believe it was called Dumpweed. It was really cool. I wish I had known some of their songs- I'm sure I would've enjoyed this experience more. I'm sad I didn't stay longer but I knew my body couldn't take anymore.

The next song they played was Rock Show. We knew that and I thought we'd leave after that but I was feeling so horrible that we just left during the song. We were both physically spent. I had been standing up for 6 hours straight and I had consumed probably 300 calories and it was 10 pm. I'm sorry blink. :(

We went to the merchandise stand and they had the cutest Panic! shirt. I saw it on the way in but we decided to do shopping after.

I ! PATD. It's so genius, I wanna die. They didn't have my size so I got a Medium. It's too big but that's okay. I didn't want any other shirt. It was perfect.

We walked out of the theatre. The security told us, "No re-entries." We understood and gladly walked our way to my mother's car. For the first time in 6 hours of hot, sweaty, pot scented, routy hours, we sat down. It felt so good. We went to Friday's for dinner and then we went home. It had been the best day of my life and I wouldn't have changed it for anything. I love that day. There was supposed to be a FOB/ Panic! after-party at Angels & Kings but we assumed you'd have to be 21 to enter and my mom wanted to go to bed. Another day Panic!, another day....

Some people think New Perspective is about the splitting of Ryan and Jon form the band. Some people think it's about Brendon being a man slut and wanting a gir to go down on him. Some people don't even know what the hell it means. Well guess what, I figured it out. I know what the lyrics mean:

The song is about learning to be in love and not just to want a physical relationship. He's kind of torn between the two. He says, "Can we fast forward to go down on me..." (blow job) but then he's like, "Stop there, and let me correct it..." At first he just wants the physical thing but then he decides to do it the right way. "You come along because I love your face" is how he just likes her looks but then he says, "Divine Intervention, I wanna be praised from a new perspective" meaning that he wants to love her personality too. "But leaving now would be a good idea..." is like he's on her door step and instead of going in, he says 'goodnight' and calls her then next day. So he's leaving instead of moving too fast in the relationship because he's seeing things from a new perspective. "Inching through your bed..." is like he's about to make the move but then he says, "Instead, watch me go" and he doesn't. Being "praised from a new perspective" means that he wants her to love him for not moving too fast and doing things right. He would "wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines" means that he'll wait until the relationship is ready for the next step. "Seeing clear would be a bad idea" means that he really doesn't want to see clear in love, he just wants to be in love and be happy instead of dissecting things. And in the end he chooses to be in REAL love instead of phony love (i.e. physical relationship) and says, "I'm getting out of here." And the part of him that wants to "fast forward until you go down on me" fades out in the end because it doesn't control him anymore.

I love this song. It is NOT at all about the split from Ryan and Jon. People try to bend the lyrics to mean that it's about the split, but it's not. This song is about one thing and that's a relationship, not a song about a relationship with some lyrics about their old guitar and bass player randomly thrown in.

I went to SongMeanings.net and read what other people had to say and found legit suggestions here and there and figured it out. Remember: IT'S NOT ABOUT RYAN AND JON!

*Song linkage*

Ryan Ross has been known for tricking people via Twitter (al-la the "coming out party" text, pretending to be gay) but this seems really really legit and....... I'm confused.

See for yourself:

Here are pictures from last night:

These are some from other days (some more infamous than others):

It also says it on her Wikipedia page

I think this is legit.... IDK. Ryan's been out with her before... They've known eachother for a while now. I thought he was dating Kate but.... guess not... It really does not make sense. We'll just have to wait and see if it's true via his Twitter via a straight answer. He needs to clear this up before several people kill themselves, me possibly being one of them.

If it's true- I say, "Congradulations" and if it's not I say- "God dammit Ryan! Stop messing with my heart! It's been a hard enough month!!!" This is so weirddddddd.......